Every Night She Cries Herself To Sleep

"Thinking why does this happen to me?

I wish I could cry about this.

Then, at least my emotions would be out and maybe I would feel a bit better.

But all that I get?

A lump in the pit of my stomach

And in the middle of my throat."

Baby, Do You Like My Sweater?

"I'm glad I am long over you.

You have really girly looking legs.

But at least you make her happy."

Leave Your Pain On The Bedroom Floor Again.

"And I can't get enough of you.

All of you."

Break All My Thoughts, Hit The Floor

"I've got a song for everyone today.

*Breathe - Angels and Airwaves

'I've got a lot to say, if you will let me.'

Get to know me. You will be surprised at how much you might enjoy my company. And how much I enjoy yours.

* Around the Clock - The Rocket Summer

' And I, I am not into, the idea of being without you.'

Basically, I want to just remind those people I love that I in fact cannot survive without there presence.

* What Sarah Said - Death Cab For Cutie

'And it came to me then, that every plan, is a tiny prayer to Father Time.'

Lets hang out more; NR, BR, ML, CC, AL, GH, KG, JC, TG, JK.

* I Got The Message - Men Without Hats

'I got the message, and the message is clear'

You were a little harsh today, and I definitely think you could have handled it more maturely.

* Walk Out To The Edge - Helen Gone

' The casual acquaintance of a true blue friend.'

TG, NR, DBH, JC, JP, AL, ML, CC have all been so helpful lately, so thank you for being there for me when I need it.

* Everything - Micheal Buble

'And you light me up, when you ring my bell.'

KG, I am so glad your love life is finally going well. You are so gorgeous and amazing, and you deserve so much! I am so happy for you!

* Cheer Up - Lamont & Ten Shekel Shirt

'Cheer up, you are worse off then you figure.'

AL, I know you think things are hard right now. But truthfully, thing are always hard. So just, push it away, cheer up, and be that you I know is shining in there!

* Mister Brightside - The Killers

'It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this?

NR, wow. I can't believe how perfect you two are together. I actually couldn't be happier for you! You have been so happy lately, which makes me happy and is just all around awesome! I love you so much.

* San Francisco - Vanessa Carlton

'Over coffee, this is my Utopia.'

ML, I never thought I would ever be friends with you. I am so glad we have become so close, and I just want you to know that I am totally always around if you need something. You are my friend now, and I am here for you. You lucky duck.

* Echo - The Hush Sound

'For histories sake, would you please take notice?'

I just want things to work out, but now, I think I have something on my side which really is going to help me out. Something I think I have been needing in my life all along."

And I Wonder If You Ever Think Of Me

"Wish me luck.

- Title: Just admit you are in love with me"

What We Hate, We Make.

"I'm feeling really pessimistic today, and nothing really could change that.
Okay, well there are a few things that could, but they are mostly unlikely.

So yeah, I am not very cheery at the moment."

This Is My Utopia

"So, now it is time for a long rambling blog. Hurray!

* So, I feel really annoyed. Is there actually no hope for me at all whatsoever? Because last time I checked, I wasn't a leper or anything! And if I am, someone please notify me A.S.A.P.

* I still am not comfortable. But telling myself it makes it alright to deal with. Actually, that's a lie. I am comfortable most of the time. There are a few moments when I really just want to jump off a balcony.

* This is high school, and the one time I have to make as many friends as possible. So that is what I am going to do. Because I love having so many people to be friends with, and I am not going to stop. If you want to make plans, call me and talk and make plans.

* I think this whole cell phone thing is STUPID.

* I think that you will start to like him soon. Which is good, because he is fantastic for you.

* So, I can't get enough of talking to you. Clearly, I am insane for actually telling you things after this whole situation, but I can't help it. I think you have learned your lesson, and that you and I will be fantastic friends.

* You three are so much more beautiful than you think you are, which breaks my heart. I would trade most things to look like you do. I don't really know how I got so lucky to have such beautiful, gorgeous friends. You are all so special to me, and you mean the world to me. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Especially that BITCH (this is a special message to one of you <3)

* You three aren't my only beautiful friends, just so you all know. I actually have come to the conclusion that, though it sounds shallow, I have a hard time being friends with unattractive people. Sorry, that is horrible but it is true. So basically, all my friends are obviously good looking.

* I just have had thoughts all over the place lately. I don't think that is a good thing, because good things usually don't come out of my over analyzing and crazy pensiveness. So sorry if I burst into bits of insaneness.

* So, basically you are being really hypocritical. Talking about me behind my back about how I don't spend enough time with people who aren't even you after telling me it is good I am branching out, and that my other friends should be a little more understanding is not okay. I do not appreciate that.

* I dislike my schedule for next year. And I don't know why.

* I can not even wait to see the play tomorrow.

* I think I will be waiting to do your plan for the next little while. I just don't think I could handle it at the moment.

I Bet She's Beautiful.

"I would like to get my brain sorted out a little bit, and I would also like things to start to uncomplicate.

Actually, there is alot more that I would also want, but that would make a very long list I'm sure none of you want to read.

So I will spare you today, you lucky ducks you, and if you are super interested, ask me some day."

My Heart Is Drenched In Wine.

" I am pretty much feeling the epitome of wonderful at the moment, and nothing really could be much better. Well, mostly nothing. Here are some notes to some special lovelies out there!

* Please come talk to me, seeing as though you are clearly so down. I know you probably would rather not, but I want to be your friend again.

*Happy over one month, I forgot to say!

* You're the cutest, just so you know.

* I don't think I've ever told you this, but when you are in a good mood, I adore talking to you because you become really wise and amazing.

* I really am not that mad at you.

*I am actually really happy for you. Even though you didn't seem very keen at first, I think things are going really well. You so deserve this.

* HEY BABBY LETS GO FIND US A COUPLE OF HOTTIES! (teehee you will probably know that this is about you!) You rock and are gorgeous, and lets kick that other bitches ass now KAYY?"

Kiss Me With Your Cherry Lipstick

"I am now just planning to let things unfold as they may.

Here are some 'honesty statements' for the moment.

- I'll probably trust you again even against my better judgement, once you've realized how asshole-like this stunt was.

- Though you are trying not to make things awkward, they still are. But thanks anyways. It's nice of you.

- I think I like him more, anyways, so don't feel too bad for the whole situation.

- I try to remain calm about the situation, but I am so upset that I wasn't there to help you out. Not like it's my fault, but still.

- I can't even describe how glad I am that you are being so nice to me! You really should have been the whole time, but it is still awesome!

- Thanks for being the middle girl for me. I think it is actually working. Well, I'd like to hope so.

- Summer '08 will be soooo fabulously amazing, and I am so excited!

- I cannot wait to not be sick anymore.

Love's Not A Competition, But I'm Winning.

"At least I thought I was, but there's no way of knowing.

It's days like these when I find my blogspot title

oh so fitting.

The consequence of sound.

There are so many consequences that come out

of people's mouths. Today I happened to live

through some consequences of things I have said.

Not a good day for me."

There'd Be No Distance That Could Hold Us Back.

"So, today at the supper table, Star Wars was on television, and

Dad was saying how he should run for mayor, and then we could

all be Star Wars characters. He would be Darth Vader, and Mr. K

would be one of those white suit men. Mom would be Princess Leah,

because mom wanted the bun head and gold bikini, and Emma gets

to be R2-D2, but me, ohh I get to be Chewbacca because of my

eyebrows. Nice, eh? But at least I'm not Mrs. K, who got Java the

Hut. And she is also the 'lesbian woman from C.S.I.'

Sometimes I wonder what some people are thinking! Like some

people just make no sense at all. In english the other day, Mr. H

was saying how he believes that Lord of the Flies is written about

World War Three, in the year 2021.

We drove past a house today which said 'Rocks for Sale.' Actually!

Who would buy a rock when you can just pick one up and walk

around with it!

I really don't understand people at all."

And I Could Never Express The Way I Felt Before Tonight.

"Yesterday was completely and utterly fabulous.
It is insane how things have changed over time so much."

I Once New A Girl In The Years Of My Youth.

" 'No. You have doctors for everything, even the inside of your mind. You don't really mean that we got to be frightened all the time of nothing? Life [...] is scientific, that's what it is. In a year or two when the war's over they'll be travelling to Mars and back. I know there isn't no beast- not with clawes and all that, I mean - but I know there isn't no fear, either.'

Piggy paused.

'Unless -'

Ralph moved restlessly.

'Unless what?'

'Unless we get afraid of people.'

- Piggy and Ralph, Lord of the Flies"

And Today Was A Day Just Like Any Other

"You know why I like spring so much?

Because I always seem to be in a good mood in spring.

Even though things are confusing and weird at the moment

I just can't help being ridiculously happy.

I wake up to find it's another

Four aspirin morning, and I dive in

I put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.

When did society decide that we had to change

And wash a tee shirt after every individual use:

If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.

I take the stairs to the car

And there's fog on the windows.

I need caffeine in my blood stream,

I take caffeine in the blood stream.

I grip the wheel and all at once I realize:

My life has become a boring pop song

And everyone's singing along."

And I'll Be Strong

"I have the most wonderful friends.

You are not a social reject Siobhan.

Look at me

i LOVE pokemon.

like i know all the new ones, i own the newest game, the whole deal.

i love playing lego star wars on wii.

i love playing with lego.

i listen to japanese music.

i watch gay shows.

i'm totally annoying sometimes.

if i can fit in

if i can find a guy

you can too."

I Was The Ship That Was Too Proud To Ever Sink.

"If this applied to me, I would have stopped painting ages ago."

For Historys Sake, Would You Please Take Notice.

Even Though She Doesn't Believe In Love, He's Determined To Call Her Bluff.

"I love my ASIAN.

And the good things which come with her.

And I love today, actually.

I think your fortune was right for me too."

All The Stars Are Waiting For You To Shine.

"Empathy - Identification with an emotion and sharing sensations with a character, object or person.

*Today in English class, Mr. H was telling us how he doesn't think empathy exists. As he was giving examples, I did agree with him, that is, until I found this blog today. As I was reading through it, I felt a huge wave of empathy. I mean, you have summed up exactly how I felt, and how I was treated. It is weird. It puts this huge knot in my stomach, you know?

*I feel so responsible. I mean, I know I'm not, but it sure feels like it. I feel like I unleashed this crazy, asshole version of him, and it is my fault he hurt you. Which I am 99% sure it isn't, but the one percent is eating away at me.

*I'm sorry. So sorry.

*But I also am glad this has happened. I hope now people aren't stupid enough to let someone like you walk all over them, like you did with me.

*Why would you do this again! You know all the problems it has caused, and you know the drama isn't created.

*I hope this is the last blog I write about you. Though I doubt it is."