And I Tossed Some Roses To Perfume Your Grave

"And even when you walk past to the beat of my music I know

That this time I am over you for real.

Not like before.

Best friends tell each other everything. Why aren't you holding up your end of this?"

Your Are My Sweetest Downfall

"Today turned out to be kind of shitty"

One Day I Slowly Floated Away.

"George woke up and remebered that giraffes existed. It had come to him the night before, at the office Christmas party.He spent the rest of the evening interrupting conversations to tell his coworkers, 'I can't believe I forgot about them. The necks and the spots and everything. The little tails.'

I wonder where I can find a giraffe statue for you. Then you will never forget of giraffes, and then maybe, just maybe,

you won't forget about me either."

She, She Screams In Silence, A Sudden Riot Penetrating Through Her Mind

"A wise, gorgeous girl once blogged a quote. It took this quote for me to realize maybe he isn't worth the trouble. Maybe she's right, even though she doesn't know her help to me.

'Maybe you're just supposed to move on. If this is supposed to happen, it will. Decide if its worth spending day and night thinking about it, and if its worth waiting around, even if nothing may happen.'

Thanks. I actually feel the best I have about this situation now. I owe you."

Maybe I Would Have Been Something You'd Be Good At.

"So basically you are the most confusing boy I have ever met.
So I guess you deserve yet another ridiculous, rambling rant. In your honor. This one has better puncuation than the last.


Okay, so juuuust when I think we are geting quite good again, you go and tell me about another girl you like. Greeeat. The thing is, I sort of believe you and I sort of don't. I mean, we did have a lovely conversation beforehand about how you would NEVER date younger girls.. And its not like it was a quick little "Yeah, I don't know if I would." one. It was pretty lenghty.. And then you talk about her like you do.. But I just don't know.. I mean what the hell am I supposed to do? Sit back and be miss cheery love face? I don't think sooo. That was soo last time I liked you before we took that horrid non-talking to each other break.. I think I may have blown it with you over that break, and that sucks. I should have just done something that time, because I think now maybe you get the vibe that I don't like you like that.. Which basically isn't true. And I am pretty sure you know that I liked you because it was in my old nexopia blog and I am 90% sure you saw it. It is very frustrating.. And you see, I love hanging out with you. And spending time with you. I mean, we had SUCH a fun time yesterday.. If I told you this I liked you, what would happen? What if I wrecked this? I would never want us to be wrecked. We are too perfect for each other. And that is why I can't decide what to do. I want you to be happy, but isn't it my turn yet?"

She's Not A Girl Who Misses Much.

"Sometimes, I think I fall through the cracks with my friends.

Its not that they don't think of me,

Love me,

Care about me.

Its just sometimes think there are

Other things

Going on in

Other situations

And mine just happen to come..

Last.

When a friend asks me

Why I had such a bad week

And then I get intrupted by

Another friend,

That's bad enough.

But when they forget about it

All together..

Can't you see my frustration?"

I Need You, Through This Hole In My Chest, I Can Feel

" You know how much I love you?
More than words can describe.
The fight we once had
Broke my heart
But I think it made us stronger.

The only thing is,
Now when we fight
It makes me so vulnerable

Because I'm scared of a repeat."

The Pleasure Part, The Afterthought, The Missing Stone In The Graveyard

" A book once told me of a place.

'.. There'd be the requisite exploring of the world, and taunting of enemies... But most of the time I'd just sit... In my mind it was impossibly quiet, and still up there every thought would have an echo in that kind of silence. I thought it would be lovely to go someplace like that, where you couldn't even imagine the ground existing, and watch a different sunset every day.'

I would like to go there with you."

And I've Been Climbing Ladders Through Time

And All Of The Things That I Thought Were So Easy Just Got Harder and Harder Each Day.

"I don't really believe in making 'New Years Resolutions'. I just don't really think you need to use New Years as an excuse to change. If you want to change, then do it. Why wait for one day of the year to decide to change your life?

Today, though, while listening to a song I am really into, I have decided that I am going to make one resolution. One thing that I am going to do everyday is live to the fullest, and make my year completely worthwhile. I have the time to make life now, so I am going to make it and make it the best.

January, February, March, April, May

I'm alive
June, July, August, September, October

I'm alive
November, December and all through the winter

I'm alive

I'm alive"