The Name Goes Unspoken

I'm On A Roll This Time

2011-09-17T18:48:00.000-07:00

The Most Beautiful Colors Chase The Sun

2011-07-20T10:47:00.000-07:00

Away From All The Fears, And All The Faults You've Left Behind

2011-07-12T14:11:00.000-07:00

We Will Put The Lonesome On The Shelf

2011-07-06T22:00:00.000-07:00

"And if everyone would just join hands,
I'll tell you something you would not believe
I see the signs, seen the writings on the wall

And baby I'm scared."

Maybe This Is Danger And You Just Don't Know

2011-06-28T12:46:00.000-07:00

"I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart."

The Truth Doesn't Glitter And Shine

2011-06-27T09:09:00.000-07:00

"What I want is to be needed.
What I need is to be indispensable to somebody.
Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time,
My ego,
My attention.
Somebody addicted to me.
A mutual addiction

-Chuck Palahniuk."

This Is The Way That We Live

2011-06-05T11:36:00.000-07:00

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains.
You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.
You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows.
This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.

-William Shakespeare"

I'm So Tired Of Being Wrong

2011-05-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

"Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at."

All Of The Things That I Thought Were So Easy, Just Got Harder And Harder Each Day

2011-05-27T23:39:00.000-07:00

"Anx·i·e·ty
[ang-zahy-i-tee]
–noun, plural -ties.

1. Distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune: He felt anxiety about the possible loss of his job.

2. Earnest but tense desire; eagerness: He had a keen anxiety to succeed in his work.

3. Psychiatry. A state of apprehension and psychic tension occurring in some forms of mental disorder."

Whisper, "Lose Your Sight"

2011-05-26T09:09:00.001-07:00

"You are not alone in this.
You are not alone in this.
As brothers we will stand,
And we'll hold your hand.

Things I need to work on:

1. Not taking things so personally.
2. Space.
3. Making an effort to get out there.
4. Being calm.
5. Being real with myself."

Cold Is The Water

2011-05-23T17:12:00.000-07:00

"For the hundredth time since I regained it,
I reach into the pouch and I touch the sand.

I sift it through my fingers.

Feel each grain of it, inexhaustible.
Endless.

Like myself, like the few others of my kind.
ENDLESS.

Tonight I feel alone.

I have always been solitary, but here on the
Nightward shores of dream, loneliness
washes over me in waves, lapping and pulling
My spirit.

I sprinkle sand into the waters of night.
The grains burn as the fall, reminding me of another
In times long passed away.

I watched him even then as he fell,
His face undefeated, his eyes still proud.

It is time for me to walk the abyss.
Time to reclaim my own.

I must talk to the Morningstar.

-The Sandman"

These Nights That We Were Drinking, No They Never Got Us Anywhere

2011-05-19T10:57:00.000-07:00

“Il mio lato selvaggio vuole uscire intorno quando sono con lei."

I'm Going To Make Your Head Burn

2011-05-15T20:04:00.000-07:00

"There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally, I can see you crystal clear
Go head and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare."

I Find Myself In A Place That I've Never Been

2011-05-08T09:17:00.000-07:00

"There was a time I could move,
There was a time I could breathe.

This is not something I am very good at."

My Heart Stumbles On Things I Don't Know

2011-04-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

"It is hard not letting fear hold me back.
But I'm trying my best."

Breathing Comes In Pairs

2011-04-27T18:21:00.000-07:00

"Living here is not going to be the same without you."

The First Star You See May Not Be A Star

2011-04-24T00:54:00.000-07:00

http://img.ffffound.com/static-data/assets/6/271a262b3ba6a0338be26f21de759fa4bd503be3_m.jpg
"Now I am certain,
As much as I may want to,
I could never be your friend again."

Make Me Feel Like I'm Brand New

2011-04-19T00:28:00.000-07:00

It Sounds Like We Would Have Had A Great Deal To Say

2011-04-16T04:05:00.000-07:00

"It's less terrifying with time and practice.

Speaking about it is slowy becoming easier.

Next stop, Sunday.

Person number 5."

You Were Made To Meet Your Maker

2011-04-14T23:56:00.000-07:00

"I had an awesome day,
Followed by an equally awesome night.
Summer, here I come.

You have no place talking to me,

Or saying whatever you did to her.

Fuck off.

the-consequence-of-sound.tumblr.com"

This Is Because I Can Spell Confusion With A "K"

2011-04-11T21:09:00.000-07:00

"My brain is about to explode with thoughts.

I am so confused,

And I really need to get all that's in my head

Figured out.

Dies ist ungleich irgendetwas,

Das ich habe gefühlt vorher,

Und so viel wie ich es mag,

Ich bin auch davon erschrocken. "

I've Fallen Out Of Favor, And I've Fallen From Grace

2011-04-10T22:09:00.000-07:00

"I can't believe I have almost finished my first year.

My life keeps changing so quickly,

And it is constantly moving in a direction

That I like."

While I'm Off Chasing My Own Dreams, Sailing Around The World

2011-04-05T10:52:00.000-07:00

"'I believe in pink.

I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner.

I believe in kissing, kissing a lot.

I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.

I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.

I believe that tomorrow is another day,

And I believe in miracles.'

— Audrey Hepburn."

Never Could Be Sweeter Than With You

2011-03-03T19:59:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes when I drive past houses at night

And their lights are on inside

I wonder

'Are they happy?'

I hope so."

It Is Impossible To Say Just What I Mean!

2011-03-01T13:16:00.000-08:00

"Do I dare
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.

From "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock" by T.S. Eliot."

I Would Rather You Let Me Give My Heart

2011-01-30T17:07:00.000-08:00

"Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I had sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk."

Tell Me What You Want To Hear

2011-01-14T11:24:00.000-08:00

"I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess."

And I Try Not To Dream Of The Impossible Schemes

2010-12-26T23:13:00.000-08:00

"It's almost time for a new year.
Which is perfect timing to start a new me.

Possono essere belli si lei lascia la loro storia parla piú forte."

Happy Birthday To You

2010-10-23T00:01:00.000-07:00

"I am finally 18.
Thank goodness."

Sing Another Melody Completly

2010-10-13T13:38:00.000-07:00

"Jade?

Alexander?

Do you remember that day you fell outta my window?

I sure do,

You came jumping out after me.

Well, you fell on the concrete,
Nearly broke your ass,
And you were bleeding all over the place
And I rushed you off to the hospital,
You remember that?

Yes I do.

Well there's something I never told you 'bout that night.

What didn't you tell me?

While you were sitting in the back seat smoking a cigarette
You thought was gonna be your last,
I was falling deep, deep in love with you,
And I never told you till just now."

Let's Pretend We're In Antarctica

2010-10-11T21:27:00.000-07:00

"Thanksgiving this year was so awesome.
From Maya almost squirting more than a mouthful of whipped cream across the room,
To mom telling me to 'get her that little black thing from over there',
It was a really, really good weekend.

I am really enjoying school.

I am starting to settle into my new routine.

I will be an adult very soon.

Things are looking up."

Won't You Give It To Me?

2010-09-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

"But you and I now,
We can be alright,
Just hold on to what we know is true.
You and I now,
Though it's cold inside,
Feel the tide turning.

University is fun."

Because We Can't Freeze Ourselves.

2010-09-06T23:00:00.000-07:00

She sits him down in a stiff chair,
Rubs his back and strokes his hair,
Telling him it's okay to cry.
But he just sits and stares.
The merciless moon outside
Has nothing now, he's come to realise,
Only the desolation he feels
The cold distance inside.

Angels Fall Without You There

2010-08-30T15:32:00.000-07:00

"Fall has come, and it is time for new beginnings.

As our lives begin, so many things are changing.

I take comfort, though, in knowing

Those you love are only

A phone call away."

How Long Should I Stay?

2010-08-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

"Good bye, small town.

I will miss you,

But not too much.

I am ready for my life to begin.

3 days."

Baby, Don't Take It Personal

2010-07-31T12:38:00.001-07:00

"I am so thankful that I was safe,

And that nothing that bad happened."

I Can Feel It In My Bones.

2010-07-05T23:29:00.001-07:00

"'1 Timothy 2:8-10

Since prayer is at the bottom of all this,

What I want mostly is for men to pray—

Not shaking angry fists at enemies but raising holy hands to God.

And I want women to get in there with the men

In humility before God,

Not primping before a mirror

Or chasing the latest fashions

But doing something beautiful for God

And becoming beautiful doing it.'"

I'm Only Human With My Cross To Bare

2010-07-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

"Porcupine-ology
Antler-ology
Car-ology
Bus-ology
Train-ology
Plane-ology
Mama-ology
Papa-ology
You-ology
You-ology
Love-ology
Kiss-ology
Stay-ology
Please-ology"

All We Can Do Is Keep Breathing

2010-07-03T12:13:00.000-07:00

"Graduates,

We have heard a million pieces of advice

From so many smart, talented,

Beautiful,

People.

A lot has been said,

And I just want to say one more thing.

I am so proud of the accomplishments

That have already come out of your lives.

And I know you will amount to greatness.

Congrats, Grad 2010.

You made it."

And I'll Never Be The Same, Oh Yeah.

2010-06-27T23:04:00.000-07:00

"I am graduating tomorrow."

I'm Stuck Inside This Rut That I Fell Into By Mistake

2010-06-24T21:35:00.001-07:00

"I don't want to be in this place"

But Tell Me, What Have I Done To Deserve You?

2010-06-22T23:43:00.000-07:00

"{How fickle my heart,

And how woozy my eyes}

I have a very strict policy

On making this sort of thing

Real.

{And now my heart stumbles on things

I don't know.}"

There's Never Been Such A Beautiful Warning To Me.

2010-06-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

"This chapter has ended,

And a new one is beginning.

I couldn't be more excited,

Or more proud of some people.

Change is around, it is

Inevitable,

And things are going to be

Great."

And Love Will Not Break Your Heart, But Dismiss Your Fears.

2010-06-06T20:24:00.000-07:00

"Do it.

And I took you by the hand
And we stood tall,
And remembered our own land,
What we lived for."

What Took You So Far Away?

2010-05-23T17:44:00.000-07:00

"I am a child
And you are the adult.
I don't know why you can't seem to see this.

Sure, I am graduating in about a month.

That still doesn't mean you can talk to me like a friend,

Over a daughter.

Don't put this pressure on me,

To move or to decide on what I want now.

I can't really take this anymore.

I miss you, but you need to treat me like your daughter,

And stop pushing me to decide what I want.

There is a difference between 17 and 40, you know."

Do You Ever Sit And Wonder?

2010-05-12T13:58:00.000-07:00

"So, sure, I could just close my eyes.
Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,
But can you go back once you know.

You don't know me,
You don't know me at all,
You don't know me
You don't know me,

At all.

I am still in disbelief over what I did.

I can't believe I had the guts for that.

A lot of people are probably surprised at it.

But it is so great to hear that more people

Are inspired,

Rather than judgemental.

I feel like I have come leaps and bounds

From being in the place I was

When all these things happened.

The words I was speaking feel

More true this time around."

This Is How It Works

2010-05-06T15:31:00.000-07:00

"No, this is how it works.
You peer inside yourself,
You take the things you like,
And try to love the things you took.

And then,

You take that love you made,
And stick it into some,
Someone else's heart.
Pumping someone else's blood.

And walking arm in arm,
You hope it don't get harmed.
But,

Even if it does,

You'll just do it all again.

Regina Spektor always has such a good message.

Maybe that's why you like her so much, too."

Sort Of Wonder Why No One Said A Word.

2010-05-01T22:33:00.000-07:00

"Disappointment seems like it is bound to happen on a daily basis.

I don't want to be someone who disappoints.

That life doesn't seems over glamorous to me.

It is funny when you can tell.

You can tell when it is over."

It's The Happiest That I've Ever Been

2010-04-29T09:28:00.000-07:00

"He provides me with all I need."

There's No Glitter In The Gutter.

2010-04-22T22:14:00.000-07:00

"I feel so lost and unsure.

What is to happen next?

Where am I supposed to be?

Why do I feel so far from You?

It is freaking me out a little."

We're All Wasted.

2010-04-20T14:30:00.000-07:00

"How disgustingly unattractive.

I feel sad for people who have become this way."

Lonesome For No One

2010-04-19T21:02:00.000-07:00

"Is there even a point in writing here anymore?

Does anyone even read this thing?

Or, better so,

Does anyone even give a shit?"

I'll Never Be The Same

2010-04-15T22:34:00.000-07:00

"Things are changing, and things have changed.

I could say a lot about Costa Rica here,

But I think if you want to know,

Just ask."

I'm Brand New

2010-04-11T22:37:00.001-07:00

"I can honestly say, I had the 10 most amazing days of my life this past spring break.

More to come on that later."

So I'll Stand, With Arms High

2010-03-31T19:29:00.000-07:00

"I am more than ready for this adventure."

Through A Long Hallway With A Broken Light

2010-03-25T21:35:00.000-07:00

"I know what I am doing next year.

I get lonely easily.

I miss having you around.

I am okay not having a best guy friend.

I want to forgive you.

I don't want to forgive you.

I am really sad that we didn't work out.

This was a good week.

This was a bad week.

I love my hair.

I am done with guys for a while."

I Should Know That You're Not Going To Change.

2010-03-23T21:53:00.000-07:00

"You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down.

How do I really feel?

Like you've really lost this one."

I'm Not As Blind As You May Think

2010-03-17T22:53:00.000-07:00

Is There Any Just Cause For Feeling Like This?

2010-02-23T20:55:00.000-08:00

"Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said "

There You Go, With Hope Again.

2010-02-20T22:40:00.000-08:00

"It has officially been one year.

Which means this is done.

Their relationship is no more.

Looking back, I can see the problems I had.

I thought I would be happy right away, I could get over it quickly.

I though I could get over it alone, and I should keep it to myself.

I didn't realize all that I need and who I need.

It took me one year,

One family becoming two,

One couple becoming two,

Two houses, soon to house two new families.

This is my "New year"

My resolution?

I am making things better.

It may have taken a year,

But I am happy now.

I think we all are getting happy now."

If You Were Falling, Then I Would Catch You.

2010-02-20T19:49:00.000-08:00

"Fear."

Suck It, Valentine's Day.

2010-02-15T16:19:00.000-08:00

And When I See You Walking Down The Street, Kind Of Guy I'd Like To Meet

2010-02-14T09:56:00.000-08:00

"You have awoken this and made it real,

Like a sleeping zombie.

Get ready to face these consequences,

Whether they be bad,

Or maybe even good?"

I Feel The Knife Going In

2010-02-01T20:26:00.000-08:00

"The picture seems to say enough.

Fuck."

Here's To A New Beginning.

2010-01-19T20:58:00.000-08:00

"A new semester is coming up.

The last semester is coming up.

I need to make it worth while."

And Just Like That

2010-01-18T21:06:00.000-08:00

"Don't turn away.
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid,
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart.
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes.
Life is always hard

for the belle of the boulevard."

I'd Never Want To See You Unhappy.

2010-01-13T18:39:00.000-08:00

"'You must constantly ask yourself these questions:

Who am I around?

What are they doing to me?

What have they got me reading?

What have they got me saying?

Where do they have me going?

What do they have me thinking?

And most important,

what do they have me becoming?

Then ask yourself the big question:

Is that okay?

Your life does not get better by chance,

it gets better by change.'"

You Are The Only Exception.

2010-01-12T21:31:00.000-08:00

"Everything happens for a reason,
This I do believe.

I believe you, my smartest friend,

have a point.

It is time for me to deal with this,

Let's hope I do it right."

Blow By Blow, I Didn't See It Coming.

2010-01-06T18:09:00.000-08:00

"There are times when I just want to get up and leave.

And start all over.

Now is one of them.

Is anyone there?"

Can Anybody Find Me Somebody To Love?

2009-12-28T18:29:00.000-08:00

"I would do it! I would kiss a frog! I would kiss a hundred frogs if I could marry a prince a be a princess!"

This World Could Be Ugly, But Isn't It Beautiful?

2009-12-25T21:10:00.001-08:00

"I did it.
I survived Christmas 1, part A and B.
Who would've thought?
I have a few people when we get back to school to really thank for that.
And one big guy way up there to thank, too.

Merry Christmas everyone."

So Don't Be Afraid

2009-12-21T23:42:00.000-08:00

"I have seen quite a few Christmas miracles this season,

which is quite surprising since I wasn't expecting that

At all.

Maybe Christmas won't be a huge flop this year."

True Colors Are Beautiful.

2009-12-16T21:23:00.000-08:00

"You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And darkness there inside you
Make you feel so small.

Sometimes I wish I lived in Glee land.

Then I would be an amazing singer.

And also I would know where I fit in.

Plus, Sue is just too hilarious."

I'll Be Home For Christmas, If Only In My Dreams.

2009-12-13T22:10:00.000-08:00

"Since when have I not been excited for Christmas?

Oh, right,

When my parents decided to split and ruin the holidays for my family.

Merry Christmas, everyone."

This Feeling In My Bones

2009-12-01T20:48:00.000-08:00

"There once was a time when I was so sure on what I wanted to do with my life.

I don't know why I have changed my mind all of a sudden.

It is scaring me a lot, mostly because I need to get out of this town.

I know I am ready to move on, but I have to figure out

where."

Do You Miss My All Time Lows?

2009-11-24T21:14:00.000-08:00

"It's funny how I miss you all.

I used to talk

And share.

My blog was a place for what I was feeling

How I was feeling.

Now it is just a place for me to leave criptic clues

As to what's going on in my life.

When did I become that?

I wish it was this easy."

I've Been Flyin' In The Skies.

2009-11-22T14:56:00.000-08:00

"I wonder where all my morals went?
Because they definitely weren't around last night."

Maybe We'll Find Something Better

2009-11-15T14:55:00.000-08:00

"Deseo que fuera más creador"

What Did You See In Me?

2009-11-08T20:19:00.000-08:00

Talk Like An Open Book

2009-11-02T14:07:00.000-08:00

"Everything lately has been good enough"

We’re All Wasted

2009-10-27T20:10:00.000-07:00

"That safety mask that goes up on defence is a funny thing.
It seems to help me but I don't think it does."

All You Did Was Save My Life.

2009-10-21T17:58:00.000-07:00

"Maybe it's about knowing when to start.

When to start letting people in,

When to start forgiving,

and forgetting.

When to start getting my act together,

and when to start trusting again.

Maybe, though, the problem is stopping.

Stop caring what happened in the past.

Stop being so judgemental,

and so needy.

Stop depending on the unreliable,

and stop being hard on others.

You Could Turn All The Lights Off And Show You The Real Me.

2009-10-14T13:46:00.000-07:00

It's Just A Feeling And No One Knows Yet

2009-10-09T14:51:00.000-07:00

"Costa Rica, here I come!"

I Have Dreams Of Orca Whales And Owls

2009-10-04T11:03:00.000-07:00

You're A Model Of Freedom.

2009-09-29T19:46:00.000-07:00

"You inspired me and helped me this weekend.

Thank you.

Even without the masks, I think you are stunning."

You Can Take This However You Want.

2009-09-28T20:44:00.000-07:00

"You're justified
But there's no justice if it's just a lie
No, go and find yourself
You will if you look inside."

Cheap Words Falling Out Of Your Teeth

2009-09-21T20:38:00.000-07:00

"I am tired of change."

Wait For Something Better (You've Got To Be Stronger)

2009-09-13T20:44:00.000-07:00

I Love Books And I Love The Office.

2009-09-12T21:39:00.000-07:00

"A Reflection on Blue

Blue is the color of my
Mums nail polish today
For a party trick
She said.
Blue is the sea
But not always
It’s only the reflection of the sky
And the refraction of blue light
From the sun which is a
White ball of light containing each of the colors
Some of which
Are absorbed, including the color red
And also the sea contains particles of dirt and
Plants and animals, dead and alive,
Which make it look a bit
Blue.
Blue is the Blue Mountains
Which my brother,
Anthony,
Can see from
His window
If he stands on his drum kit.
Blue is the way my friend
Toby
Sometimes feels
Because
Other kids
Call
Him
Fat
Even though he's not
Really, not very,
And I said
"Toby,
You're not
that fat, you're
Just
A
Little
Bit
Plump"
And I
Bought him
A blue
Chupa Chup.
To cheer
Him up.
Blue is the name of my Auntie's Veronica's dog:
Blue.
Blue likes it
If you throw him an ice cube
He crunches it
He likes to fetch
A blue rubber ball
But he won’t give it back
He offers it to you
And you try to pull it out of his mouth
And he holds it with his teeth!
But blue got sick
And he threw up a bit
On the laundry floor
And the vet said,
"There’s nothing we can do
For blue"
And he died,
Just yesterday,
And this
Poem
Is a
Special Gift for
Auntie Veronica
In memory of her dog:
Blue.

-Bindy Mackenzie

Did I Make It That Easy?

2009-09-11T12:50:00.000-07:00

We'll Always Be Fair-Weather Friends

2009-09-10T19:59:00.000-07:00

"(...) humans evolved hairless in order to sweat and stay cool while
outrunning some hot and exhausted form of furry animal protein. Men
with less body hair are also less likely to harbor lice, fleas, and
mites.

This is from the book Diary by Chuck Palahniuk. It reminds
me of a certain boy. And I thought it would make him feel better about being
hairless."

The Kind Of Guy I'd Like To Meet.

2009-09-07T20:40:00.000-07:00

"This is my kind of man"

You Look Like The Kind Of Person Instigating Bad-Behaving When We're Hanging Around

2009-09-06T12:03:00.000-07:00

"Won't you give it to me?"

It's Been A Long Time Since Before I've Been Touched.

2009-09-06T00:52:00.000-07:00

"Now I'm getting touched all the time.

You rock girly.

I love you."

2009-09-01T18:50:00.000-07:00

"That's my kind of cat."

All You Did Was Save My Life

2009-08-30T20:28:00.000-07:00

"This is the last time
That I will say these words
I remember the first time
The first of many lies
Sweep it into the corner
Or hide it under the bed
Say these things they go away
But they never do.

I promise.

This is the last time

You'll have to hear about this.

I've got nothing to be upset about anymore.

On a side note,

Two of my friends got me little gifts this week

and they were very sweet!

Thanks so much, it really brightened my days!"

One Disaster Less

2009-08-28T23:34:00.000-07:00

"A few things I have discovered,

As early as today, as long ago as a year ago.

1. You're sort of a prick.

2. I hate everything about high school.

3. I have some fantastic friends.

4. And I've had some shit ones.

5. I actually like flare pants.

6. And real guys who aren't secretly girls.

7. I like drinking.

8. And I also love God. So much.

9. I think I know what I want to do with my life.

10. And the first one is to get the hell out of here."

A humorous picture for your enjoyment."

Just Move 'Em To The Side, Side, Side.

2009-08-25T20:46:00.000-07:00

"I love you.

This picture reminds me of us.

Only I'm obviously the kitty on the right."

I'm Running, And I'm Sorry If I Can't Stay In One Place

2009-08-20T23:03:00.000-07:00

"Six months.

A lot can happen and a lot can change.

Six months can change

your living situations,

your friends,

your appearance,

your attitude.

Six months.

It isn't that long

for a whole lot of change."