It's Easier To Be Sure You Love Someone.

"I am rather pensive at the moment. Though if you asked why, I definitely would be talking to you for ages, seeing as though there really isn't just one thing on my mind. There would be more like, oh, ninety. But here are a few ones for you all. And some nice pictures, too.

1. Well now, isn't this really fucking nice. I have done nothing but rip my hair out, trying to be a good friend to you. I don't understand why our friendship is going no where. I feel really under appreciated at the moment, and like there is no point of me even trying to be a good friend to anyone. Especially you. And to be truthfully honest, I don't find this situation funny.

2. The things you have said about me are so sweet and nice, and I would like to think that they are true. The thing is, I wish you weren't the only one saying them. I cannot understand why I seem to be such a reject. Not that I am, but lately it sure as hell has seemed that way.

3. I can't say that right now, you are being you. I think you need to find out who you are, and let me know, because I don't really like how you seem to be hopping from personality to personality. Plus, I want to punch you in the eye.

4. I know there are so many people not on your side, but I am. I know that it must be so hard for you, but you did the right thing. I will always be here for you, and for everyone. Please know that I think you are the greatest!

5. But, I also think you should keep your big mouth shut.

6. You're cute, but I don't know if I could handle one more mishap with a guy right now. I do like you, but I am a little 'fragile' at this moment, and it would be unbearable if it didn't work. I am trying really hard not to get my hopes up.

7. Sometimes people do this fabulous thing where they change the opinion I had of them to something so fantastic. I never thought I would enjoy your company so much; TG, JK, TLG, LB, CMF, RK. I know we don't really hang out, but I really enjoy just hanging around with you guys.

8. You have been so super amazing lately, and I really just love you; NR, JC, CC1, CC2, TLG, TG, JK, and DBH. Thanks for being so helpful and wonderous. Especially NR, who is my favorite right now!

9. I don't really know what to to about anything anymore, and my life feels a little out of control. I feel so out of control, and out of place. Thank goodness this week is half over.